Kaleidoscope

At the beginning, I am lying in a glaring yellow light, wondering what might happen today. This light seems to be completely in motion within itself, as though it were constantly exploding out of itself.

Like sunlight—this living, fluctuating light, continually emerging anew from within itself.

Suddenly, I am in my treatment room on the space station and see myself lying in the midst of a sacred geometry, as though on a drawn map. The entire room is filled with shades of red and violet.

The drawing resembles a large mandala. All the lines glow in different colors, with red and green being the first to catch my attention. It consists of twelve elements, six of which taper to a point while six end in straight edges. They alternate regularly, beginning with a pointed element. I am lying exactly in the center, aligned like the hand of a clock, with my head at twelve o’clock.

“What are you showing me now?”

In the next moment, I am sucked outward through a luminous channel and emerge into an infinite expanse, an endless field.

I look around to see whether my friends are there. They are standing behind me, and together we gaze out across this infinite field.

The field looks like a landscape, like a vast desert, a flat plain stretching all the way to the horizon. Only in the distance do enormous towers of clouds and mountains appear, shimmering almost like a mirage.

I am standing here all alone and really have no idea what I am supposed to do now.

Telepathically, I hear: “You have the choice of where you want to go. Which direction? You can choose. Every possibility you could wish for is open to you. It is your manifestation. Choose the body, choose the experience, choose your companions and your surroundings. You have the possibility to choose anything, to be any being and to have any experience you wish. You create it all yourself now.”

This field is completely empty, like a blank canvas.

Everything is infinitely vast and open. I stand there, at first trying somehow to make sense of it with my logical mind.

But then feelings begin to arise. It is as though cells were colliding with one another and creating sparks. Little sparks of joy, intentions, ideas of what I would like to do and experience. Things that grow directly out of me.

The moment such a feeling arises—for example, this joy, which now appears as a luminous yellow—something begins to manifest out of me.

From this, an entire movie emerges, a complete life with people moving around within it. And I am standing right in the middle of it, wide-eyed, smiling and cheerful, thinking to myself, “This is cool.”

It is as though I were stepping into a set.

With the thought, “Well, isn’t anything going to happen now?”, I hear my friends giggling behind me.

At that very moment, a figure suddenly jumps out from behind one of the houses I have manifested and startles me.

Puzzled by what is happening, I hear their explanation: “You are now exactly where your life is shaped and created out of your own will. It is the place where you, as a soul being, as a divine spark, emerged from unity and decided that you wanted to experience something new, something different. To have adventures, to go somewhere else, to be somewhere else. This is also why you were shown the earlier image of the sacred geometry, in which you perceived yourself at the center of this drawn plan, this mandala of unlimited possibilities. Within each of its individual elements, you will find a different path already laid out.”

Now I also recognize again the many different, constantly shifting colors of the individual lines. Red and green stand out particularly strongly. Everything is glowing and in constant, flowing motion.

I am the luminous center that determines the experience through its choice. I create the path and set the direction according to the task that corresponds to my soul energy, my vibration, my frequency.

“Because what you want to experience is not what you already are. What you want to experience is what you do not know. And that is an adventure. To experience this adventure means that you make a choice even before your incarnation. Before you receive the body that will be available to you for your life on Earth. Imagine it as a vehicle that you are given for this experience. From what is currently available, you choose the possibility that best matches your vibration and the task you have chosen. Because perhaps other possibilities are already occupied at that particular time.

“You can also imagine it like choosing a place to spend your vacation. You desperately want the house or apartment directly by the sea. But nothing is available there at the moment. So you move two or three rows farther back. It depends on how much of a hurry you are in, how quickly you want to incarnate. Perhaps you say, ‘No, I want to go now. I want to go immediately.’ Then your choice simply moves farther back rather than waiting until the possibility you wanted becomes available.

“The soul’s fundamental plan remains. It remains the goal. It corresponds to the original intention with which this experience was chosen. And it corresponds to what you, as a spark of this whole, wish to experience and fulfill. That part which is still missing in order to make the whole complete.”

We are now standing once again in front of my imaginary landscape, before that place where I create my reality. My friends are in the background, and I ask them, “What exactly do I choose for myself?”

Their answer is: “For example, you choose the country in which you want to live and the basic conditions under which you want to live. What do you want to experience? With which gender? Where do you want to go? Into which culture, and under which social and moral conditions? Is an earthly, physical or intellectual experience important to you, or is it about scientific research? Do you want to be incarnated, or do you want to have experiences spiritually in other realms of life or other states of being? It always depends on you. When you step out of unity, you are completely open to everything.

“Earthly concepts such as ‘old souls’ and ‘young souls’ lose their meaning here, because this distinction does not exist within the whole.

“There are only the experiences you have already had. Your experiences. And since time does not exist in the linear form in which we have manifested it within our earthly consciousness, at the moment when you make the decision about your experiences, the higher soul is already standing behind you. At that moment, this soul divides into many aspects. What matters now is how curious you are, how quickly you want to experience everything, and where you want to go. It also depends on how strongly you are oriented toward a particular direction.”

As it is being shown to me now, there is usually one main direction. All the other sparks are, more or less, feeder sparks that support you and contribute additional information.

How you can tell which spark carries this main direction cannot really be explained. You simply feel it. There are lives that unfold in a very direct and clear way, and others that lose themselves within themselves, wander slightly off course, or revolve around a smaller theme. Regardless of whether we perceive this as positive or negative.

“But you truly learn and experience through the hardships of life, through the task.

“If you are incarnated into a life of great poverty in India, it is because you chose precisely these difficult basic conditions. Because you said, ‘I want to experience how much strength I have to fight my way through all of this. How much strength I have to still find my own worth, not lose my courage, and preserve my faith in a hidden divinity.’

“There are countless variations of life. But there is not a single one that is not fulfilling in its own way and does not contribute its part to the whole.

“A soul also sends out sparks that die shortly after birth, or that turn back while still in the process of becoming and return to unity. Everything is allowed to be part of one’s own divine plan, part of the whole. Every soul wants to experience everything for itself, while at the same time also being part of the experiences of other souls that accompany it on its path.”

An image that reminds me of a kaleidoscope. The combination of all these tasks across the many realms, levels, and states of being makes the overall image glow and gives it its form. Within it, the actual experience reveals itself.

A kaleidoscope consists of countless points of light that turn and move, constantly creating new images. When the whole is complete, everything comes together to form one great, beautiful overall image. This turning, this movement, is continually supplied with energy. Yet the starting point of it all is not the individual soul spark. It is the great, higher soul that says, “All right, now I want to experience something.”

The image of the mandala, of sacred geometry, runs like an overarching theme through all these connections. It holds everything together, because in principle there is only one form from which everything arises.

Through rotation and movement in space, different forms, patterns, and points of focus emerge. Like in a kaleidoscope: you look into it and turn it while the light continually enters from different directions. It never remains the same, nor does it remain focused on the center. At one moment it shines more strongly from the left, then from the right or from above; at another, from several points at once. The light is continually redirected, reflected, and multiplied.

“In principle, what reveals itself within this is always change, and with it, realization. If you position surfaces opposite one another and move them, every movement, no matter how small, changes the way the light falls. Every change creates a different impulse and therefore a different effect.

“And that is exactly what this is about.”

“Every life, every thought, every action, and every movement are interconnected. Everything leads back to that one point at which your soul said, ‘Now we experience ourselves.’

“Even if someone seemingly does not find their path, their experience is just as important. Because perhaps it is precisely this point, this surface, this stone or crystal that illuminates another side. A dark side that you cannot see, a direction that is not visible because it leads inward.

“There is nothing that is wrong.

“Imagine a container that you fill with sand. When you move it, the sand inside moves as well, and the contents of the container take on different forms again and again. Yet it is always the same sand in the same container. Nothing is lost; everything remains within it.

“Every form, every mound, every change is shaped out of the whole.

“And everything you are in this very moment is part of this soul, part of this entirety. Everything you do adds something and expands the possibilities.

“In truth, it is infinite. It never ends. You can continue moving forever, because it is this very movement that brings joy.

“And when you say, ‘That is enough now, I want to do something else,’ the whole gathers itself together again and you move into the next dimension or into another state of being.

“But this game, this joy of experiencing yourself and experiencing something tangible, is possible only in a body and can take place only in the third dimension. That is why every experience is important.

“The experience of a stone is just as important as the experience of an elephant. Because every being has a different way of accessing this greater concept.”

Now I am back down in the room on the space station where everything began, and I look more closely at the mandala.

This sacred geometry in which I saw myself at the beginning has an unchanging fundamental structure. It corresponds to the fundamental vibration and therefore to the form underlying your manifestation.

In my case, it consists of twelve elements that alternate between tapering to a point and ending in a straight edge. The work of the Arcturians is also guided by this structure. They are bound to this fundamental form because it reveals precisely which path your soul has chosen. Everything they treat, balance, or energetically alter within you or around you is guided by it. This means that no one who comes here receives exactly the same treatment.

Because every treatment begins with a different fundamental energy. This is part of that person’s soul energy, which in turn is only a spark of an even greater divine spark of consciousness.

Everyone carries a different fundamental idea within them. This reminds me of that feeling at the beginning, when I perceived something gathering, molecules coming together, and something emerging from them—an image forming, something manifesting.

For one person it may be joy or a sense of adventure; another may be more withdrawn, slow, or contemplative. So there is already a primordial fundamental vibration present.

When I think of elements in this context, the term initially seems almost too banal to me, too human. But they contradict me: “No, it is not banal. Because there is a fundamental substance. A chemical fundamental substance that exists within the universe.

“When you say that you are a spark, you too carry different proportions of these fundamental substances within you. These fundamental substances, in turn, form the basis of your spark. As above, so below.”

Body

As I lie in my energy bed now, I see my mandala becoming a figure in space. Through movement, the flat, two-dimensional form transforms into a three-dimensional shape.

I can actually watch this figure take form. It rotates around me in every direction, forming colored lines at its points and gradually transforming into a luminous energy body that radiates in all the colors of the rainbow, surrounding me and at the same time permeating me.

I am now the kaleidoscope itself.

I feel all these energies passing through me from the outside, from every direction, illuminating me from within. At first, I cannot even tell exactly where I feel them. But then my throat becomes hot and my voice grows hoarse.

Everything seems to originate from the throat chakra and spread from there upward into my head and downward through my body. I am all these points of light.

Now I can clearly feel the flow of energy along my spine as well, all the way down into my heels. An energy channel opens beyond the crown of my head.

And with it come the words: “You are light. You are the spark. You are everything.”

It is this feeling of complete unity in being. A beautiful feeling, like being held. Behind it lies a profound sense of security and something I can only describe as a “value beyond judgment.”

What does “value beyond judgment” mean?

Your value simply is. It is everything. It is here, it is now.

Now I see this underlying figure again. A straight edge alternates with a crystalline point. In the upper part of the straight elements, I initially see mainly red and violet, gradually shifting into green toward the bottom. It truly looks as though it has been drawn. The points pulse with a bright yellow light.

The first and most distinct color I perceived was red. It runs through the form and repeatedly becomes part of this entire image.

They are the connections. I try to imagine this form in motion and three-dimensionally in space so that I can recognize what it actually looks like.

There are clouds and points, almost like a luminous cloud in constant motion. And in the midst of it all, I am there with my energy body.

This entire rounded form, with its straight and curved lines, is incredibly beautiful. Like my own crystal.

From within, it glows with an intense brightness. On the outside, all these colors appear like tiny flashes of light flowing through the lines and continually lighting up. Inside, however, there is this brilliant luminosity radiating outward.

You are the luminous center in the kaleidoscope of your life.

Every moment is your creation. Everything is possible. It is always up to you to see it without judgment and as your task.